I can not find satisfaction. Not in anything. Not in my decisions. Not in my life. I have chosen for myself, yet all I feel is lost. A moment of happiness flutters by like a butterfly. Here one moment and gone in the wind. Like a magic moment that is difficult to believe in.
Why do I go up so high, only to fall to despair so quickly. One day to the next, emotions raw and heart broken. Will I ever be satisfied, or will my heart continue to bleed a million sorrows.
I have made my life, why am I not satisfied? I need not crave more and yet I still do. When will I find peace and happiness? When I finally have my own family? When I see my kids grown? Will my last breath be a sigh of peace and happiness or full of regret and wishes? Why must my mind be so negative, unable to transmit happy thoughts. I am destined to be without satisfaction because that’s all my mind can see. One day I will try to fix this problem within me.